A little over a year ago, I’m pretty sure it was May, I was suffering from what I believe was my first real panic attack. If you’ve never had a panic attack it is one of the worst experiences you can have. I’m sure it might be different for everyone but it feels like the world is spiraling out of control and the only cure is to curl up in a ball in the corner.
What set this off? I was told, during a conference call at work, that I was going to have to fly to Tampa. This sounds so ordinary and mundane but being told that made my life spiral out of control. I got off the call and immediately began to hyperventilate and basically freak out. I even told my boss about my problem and was basically told this was my job and to get on the plane.
Fast forward to January. When something amazing and astonishing happens, I actually get offered a job with Iron Girl. I then had to make a huge life changing decision. Take this job that required flying to places I had never been or pass and take a stupid safe job. Why would I do that? Why would I pass up what looked to be my dream job because I was afraid of something that people do everyday.
So I resigned myself to the fact that I was going to have to fly and this past weekend I flew. Granted, my amazing doctor did hook me up some very helpful meds BUT I did fly without any big issues.
This week I fly out again for Wisconsin, then Maryland, then Seattle! I’ve gone from someone who let a fear run her life to a jet-setter and I couldn’t be happier! Sometimes the risk really is worth the reward. I’m excited that this job has pushed me because I’m excited of all the places I now can go!
What fears have you faced??